Day 30

Well, would you look at that. I've been sober for 30 days now. Part of me really wants to have a party. I mean, technically, that's all I agreed to do, but my brain's still broken. I have my doubts that it will ever be better. Anyways, I miss the company I was keeping more than the actual drinking itself. Is that weird? Now that I've been sober long enough to have detoxed, I can't think of a reason why I drank so much. I have high self-esteem, my life is ridiculously easy, I really don't have any complaints. Mind you, I still want to drink. I just can't come up with a rational reason to do so.