I went to AA again today. My friend talked me into it. I really don't feel like I belong there. I haven't hit rock bottom, I don't hang out with the kind of people that I could hit rock bottom with. I lead a good life. You know what else, I get myself in just as much trouble sober. I'm kind of a dick. I tell myself that I'm just assertive and have high self-esteem so I won't let people walk on me. This is true, but I don't have to be an asshole about it. It doesn't bother me though. I like who I am.
I was accosted twice after the meeting. The first time by a woman that told me that maybe I should go and get the partying out of my system. Wind up on a missing person's list or in jail. She said it was only because she cared. WTF? You care so you want me to end up where these other people were? The second time was about God. They asked me about the little voice in my head that tells me not to do bad things. I call it common morality. People that NEED God to be good people frighten me a bit. Like the only thing keeping them from a murderous rampage is some imaginary being. What happened to basic humanity? Fucking hell.
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