Day 18

I'm genuinely attempting to go sober. It's hard. All my friends drink. They try to be supportive, but in the meantime there's always beer in the fridge. I think about getting wasted at least a couple times a day. It really sucks. It doesn't even have to be a bad day. On good days, booze makes them better. On bad days, well, booze makes them better, too. I know I'm an awful drunk. Anyways, to get real support, I've joined an AA group. I love going. The people sit around and bitch about their lives, but they also share their accomplishments. And they're funny. Who'd have ever thought that alcoholics would be funny?! I relate to them so well. I'm perpetually stuck on step one in the program, but that's okay. I will never be open to spirituality. As long as I'm staying sober, I don't really think it matters.