Day 2

I tried to kill myself. No, I wasn't intentionally trying to die, but somehow I lost all self control. About 4 shots of tequila, 14 varied beers(mostly the stronger winters), and and entire bottle of wine. I don't know why. I just had to. I don't know if I can get better, they say addiction is forever. All I know is that right now I have a sinking feeling. All I can do is try. I can't promise any success, but for now I have today.